So today my little Vincent is going on a trip with Grandma, Grandpa, Auntie, and his 2 Step-Uncles. They are going to oregon, to go whale watching and have fun...and it gives me 9 days of being single and no child. Im so scared about being alone, but im excited for the chance to relax.

I was joking with my mom that I wont be home most of the time she is gone. But honestly, I am planning on cleaning my room, Vincents room and the game room. Then I will carpet clean(my room has water damage to the carpets due to water leaking. BLAH!).

Once that is done, I will probably work upstairs as well and get the carpets cleaned in the living room. Vincent likes to play with his food(as most toddlers do) and so there are spots all over the living room. LOL.

I cried when leaving home to come to work. I came to work late because I wanted to be able to cuddle my boy for a bit. *sigh*

Any who...have a great day.

http://www.sltrib.com/news/ci_6379794 so I was at the scene of a crime, and the stuff appears in a news story...*sigh* Gotta love drama. Enjoy the story. If you know me you'll know where im involved in all of this.

there, I told you I would post pics.

Well I officially have my own computer now. Now its all up to me to load pics and everything. will probably work on that later.

My computer has a 160 Gb HDD, 2 Gig memory, awesome video and everything. :-)

Thanks to Josh for not hating me, so that he can build it. I didnt want to screw anything up.

My weekend was way too long, but fun. I am going to be dog tired come work tomorrow at six freaking AM. Blah.

Any who...here is an update. I will do more later. Rah.

So now that Josh and I are no longer together, he is being a complete and utter asshole. Wont let me eat alone, because he wants to talk. Then just makes me feel guilty, which is stupid.

So today Josh knew we have a family reunion to go to, and was trying to say vincent cant go because its his night. But this has been informed to him for a couple weeks. I got mad, and then he HAD to come home on lunch(take note im driving) and grab his stuff.

OH! And he never had his license the entire time we are together, and he freaking calls the DMV NOW and finds he only has to pay 30 dollars and his drivers license will be reinstated. So he is just NOW going to get his damn license, and start driving. ARGH!

He also works out now, doesnt get on the game as much, yadda yadda yadda. So apparently being married to me is so miserable he had to make my life miserable. EFFING A!

So I am doing my best to be the nice one, and he is being an ass. I am ready to hit something, but dont want to hurt myself. Good freaking god.

thanks for reading. I can breath now.

So yesterday I was able to take my sister in law home, but she fainted before getting out the doors of the hospital. It took 3 hours to do what I thought was going to be only 30 minutes. *sigh*

I hope she is ok. She had to have a total of 3 blood transfusions, and now that her milk has come in and its extremly painful we have a lot to worry about. Well...I really shouldnt worry. But if you know anything about me, you will know that I take on more worry than I should.

So her little guy is fine, thriving. Itty bitty and all that jazz. Brooke is looking pretty darn good for having just had a kid. I just hope she stays alive...its been pretty scary.

Josh keeps saying he wants to work things out, and I am not sure I do. This would be his 3rd chance, and I just dont think I can go thru this all over again. I worry that if I give him another chance, I will feel like I wasted myself to another year of just trying.

He thinks he is ready to quit playing so many video games, start working out, finally get his license...I love this guy. I really do. I just dont know...so please do not post any judgements of him. I am just trying to get some of the stuff off my mind...and it really isnt working...*sigh*

So tomorrow I will be helping my friend with her flower arrangements for her wedding. The wedding planner had to skip out, and I guess I got a little of my mom in me and know how to arrange flowers a little bit. So we will see how that goes. My friend gets married saturday, so I will also help get stuff set up. Her reception doesnt start until 6, and I will probably be there until 11 or 12. But it will be worth it...she knows how to party it up. LOL

I am excited. So any who...if you cant tell I have ADD with the fact that my transitions do not exist and there are at least 3 topics of conversations still going on in my head...yeah...dangit!

Have a good day!

Poor little Vincent(or is it poor mommy and grandma and grandpa?).

He was up most of the night just crying and moaning. I think he is popping out a molar, and he is one miserable little snot.

I couldnt get to sleep until 11:30. I might need to invest in Tylenol PM. But I couldnt relax. So I took a hot bath, go to sleep. My mom was the one who had to wake me up and hand me my little guy and he was just crying and whining. He didnt go back to sleep for a good hour. And he slept for maybe 2 hours and woke up screaming again. I cuddled him and tried my darndest to console him.

So I am here, at work, about to take the final test for the job. RAH! I hope this tooth pops out soon so that everyone in the house can sleep again.

My sister in law might not be getting out of the hospital today, she had to have 2 transfusions of blood because she is clotting and bleeding horribly. I am so scared. I hope everything goes ok with her. Her little guy is so cute. I will try posting pics and all that jazz soon.

So there is your new update. Go me...im trying to get back into the blogging way. HOORAH!

omg, the weekend

So I went to my friends bachelorette party at Area 51(club) and it was so much fun. I had 2 mixed drinks and 2 shots. I was still in control of myself, and danced my butt off! :-)

The sad part tho...I got home around 4am and fell asleep. Aparently my sister in laws water broke around 9am, and she was calling me to come. I was supposed to be in the delivery room with her. She finally found a ride to the hospital, and called me again. I get there not even 30 minutes after she calls and they already had cut her open and had the baby out.

I missed everything...and im bawling in the lobby feeling like a failure when I was supposed to be there holding Brookes hand(plus...headache didnt help...bah). But after that Brooke was wheeled into the recovery room, I told her I was so sorry and she said it was fine. She is glad that I was able to finally have fun and relax with all the stress going on in my life.

Poor Brooke...all cut and bruised and drugged. She had a scheduled C-section set up for Thursday the 12th, since this is her 9th kid and she had a previous C-section with her last one, and one c-section prior. They didnt want to risk the uterus rupturing.

So I guess they put a rush on the c-section and I missed it...*sigh*

Then I went to the nursery to look in the window at cute little Eli Dane Andrews, and he is just so itty bitty...hooked up to oxygen making sure his lungs are good. I wander back to Brooke and bawl all over again. He was born @ 11:46am. 6lbs exactly and 17". Just this little thing....So precious.

Brooke got her tubes tied while they were in there, since this was her 9th(and i said NINTH) and final child.

So any who...life is crazy right now. I did NOT hook up with anyone at the club, I was there for the Bachelorette party and I am just freshly single. I am NOT doing rebound, and im not hooking up with some dude from the club. Go me...drinking and no nookie! I am a good girl! LOL

And soon I will be posting even more, as soon as I build my computer that should be in the next week or so. Woo...

Any who...signing off now. Mom, stepdad and Vincent are hiking somewhere and I need to get my room and the downstairs cleaned up so I can start fresh and new with my life. Hoorah!

yeah...life sucks...

I am glad for those of you who still check in on this blog. I know I really should update more, but between school, work, parenting and life I have been overwhelmed.

Josh and I are getting a divorce. No rush on divorce, but he is going to be completly moved out by this weekend. It is an amicable split, and we are still going to be friends. So far, we have talked and agree on all the terms to this. So it should be cut and dry.

I feel numb tho, and have a hard time getting hungry. Josh said that we should be done on Monday....it was hard to focus in school...

I have taken the rest of this term off, but will go back for the next term starting September 10th. There is no way im letting my education get away from me. I just need time to adjust to being single again.

*sigh* I have not been single for more than 2 weeks since I was 15...I feel lost and alone. It sucks. But I am grateful to have my friends and family, and im still going to be good friends with my sister in law Brooke and Bianca. I got too close to them to dissapear now.

So yeah, i dont hate the male species. I dont hate Josh. It just makes more sense to leave now while we can remain buddies....then to drag it longer and potentially hate eachother.

So there...I updated. Now...back to training(job)