Happy Halloween

Vincent is just too darn cute for words. I just did some dark makeup and put red hair gel in my hair...woot! Happy halloween!

the one with vincent in the highchair was taken at my parents. The others are of vincent when he was at Josh's house overnight. SEE! He does stand up! And chew things to bits! Gosh he is so freaking cute! I love that kid so much...it amazes me how fast he is growing.

And now....LOOK WHAT HE DOES! He is 6 months old! He crawls up a storm, and the other day I go into his room and he is standing! ISNT he just so freaking cute!!! Gosh! I cant believe that he has already gotten this big, is 6 months old, and is crawling, pulling himself up to a standing position...oh this is fun!!! I wish he would stay tiny forever! :-(

Its been a while. These pics are of Vincent when we went to PCMC cause he was sick. DH kept saying it was teething, but both my mom and I felt that Vincent was getting a fever for another reason.

And the verdict...viral infection...NOT TEETHING!

Poor boy. He has been feeling icky and not sleeping thru the night for a few weeks. Im feeling the deprivation of sleep...

And that is my mama(gramma to Vincent) holding him. She came to the hospital with me, which was a godsend because I couldnt have done it alone.

The past few days Vincent has been super fussy. So today we go to the doctor...he only has a cold. Lets hope he gets over it fast. We are all feeling the lack of sleep. He weighs 18.2lbs right now! woot

Josh and I still have our issues. But we are going to do our best to work them out, and hopefully by December or so we know if we will stay together or not. We need a few counceling sessions...I need to get some bills caught up...hopefully this all works out. I know I love him, he just pisses me off a lot sometimes...

I just got home from spending the night with my friend. Im going to take a nap in just a second and then wake up, clean my room up(its not messy really, just crowded right now with everything in it) and then I get Bianca from school(my sis in law) and we are going to kick butt in the apartment and clean it up. Rah...

Any who...just thought I would update. I need to add more pics...I know...but dangit...I dont have my digi cam...and even if I did I dont have the port to plug it into on my laptop. *sigh*

Maybe I shall ask my mother to take some pics for me to post. Now theres a thought!

Any who...buhbye!

Well its about 1:35 am. I just finished getting everything set up. There is still cleaning needing to be done, but i got everything into the room so that its not in the way when my stepdad comes home from hunting camp tomorrow.

I stink. I shall wake up tomorrow morning and shower. Rah...I miss Josh.
I love him so much, and we are going to do our best to work thru this. I want us to save enough money for 2 or 3 months rent. MY deposit from this old apartment is going to be put as a deposit for the new place. We are moving into a place with washer dryer hookups so its not so bad. Rah.

I miss him. Love him. I know now that there is no doubt in my marriage. He just needs to slow down on video games and put me and Vincent more #1 than a running up #1. Ya know?

any who...its late...im going to bed. Night.

Well its official. I live with my mother now. I am going to stay here at least 3 months while Josh and I go to counceling. We wil probably try moving in with eachother again, but if there is to be another fall out thats it. I want this relationship to work, because I know I love Josh. I also know that I placed my first son for adoption because I wanted him to have a mommy and daddy. I want the same for Vincent, but I also know there comes a time when it is better to have a mom and a dad who dont live together than those who do and are horrible. So we will see how this goes...

I hope we are able to work things out. I really do. I love Josh, but there is so much that both he and I need to work on to be able to work things out. I hate how he puts Vincent in his crib after feeding him his bottle and changing his diaper in the morning, just because he wants to sleep. That irks me. I also hate that Josh wont always put the video games on pause to give me some me time without asking me "What" ya know?

I also know that I am a slob. I clean really good, but to motivate me to clean its like BLEH. I also know that I can be VERY hormonal. I wont blame it in periods, depression or anything like that. I just get bitchy sometimes.

There are lots of other things that Josh and I need to work on. But he really needs to not stay up so late playing games and then sleeping in, ignoring vincent crying because I know Vincent is wide eyes and bushy tails in the morning and its time to get up.

*sigh* I keep praying that everything works out the way it should(or maybe the way I want it)...but I am so glad that I am able to live with my parents. Its a big stress reliver in a way. :-)

I will update more later.