So after his visit tuesday finding he had/has an ear infection...he is beginning to clear up. Tried to get into the cardiologist and that didnt happen. Scheduled an appointment on the 21st of August if anything. Hopefully he is seen before then, but I do have an appointment.

He is begining to sound more and more normal as the days pass. You can still tell he is sick, but its getting better.

I am so thankful for my insurance, for my husband(who by the by is a freaking dork weed but I love him) and for Vincent. So there you have it...vincent is getting better....im worn out...and josh is playing video games. Life is back to being GRAND. Thanks for the prayers and well wishes.

MORE NEWS

Well we had the follow up pediatrician visit today. After taking a chest x-ray, and due to Josh's condition, we have now been told to see a cardiologist. So I call tomorrow to see about getting in soon.

Vincent now has an ear infection, on top of his croup. RAH! And he now weighs 14.7lbs. He is just a big lump! A whiny, pathetic sounding lump. I love my boy! :-)

So we arent quite out of the woods yet on the whole heart thing, but the peditrician wasnt toooooooooooo horrible sounding about the whole thing. ITs just a "make sure" visit...*crosses fingers*

I promise, new pics soon!!!!

Been a while

It has been a while since I last posted on here. I have a lot to go over. So enjoy this long post.

Starting at the beginning. My new job didnt work. I was harrassed, went to the HR Department and told them about what was happening, and was told that there was absolutely nothing they could do for me until I was on the call floor. THIS being said 2 days after the meeting that we had saying they at a 0% harassment policy. NO Harassment was accepted...

*cough cough bullshit cough cough*

so I quit there, and was able to be completly reinstated back at my current job that I have been with for 15 months.

Next set of news. Kupo(my black fluffy cat) ripped open a bag of kitty littler and proceeded to take a nice big CRAP on it, in the living room. So Josh got way mad and threw her outside on the porch. She ran away and was gone for 2 days. Then one night we had our bedroom window cracked open for airflow...and I woke up hearing something pawing at the blinds and meowing. Seems Kupo wanted to be home.

And since coming home she has beeen a pretty good kitty...so HA! Bet she got her butt beat outside and realizes that she much rather live in the house. :-)

Next item of business...VINCENT HAS CROUP! OMFG.

For about 2 or 3 days I noticed he was sniffly, but I was doing what I thought was right and putting saline drops down his nose and sucking them boogers out.

Friday night(last friday...the 21..yesterday) Josh and I went and saw Pirates of the Carribean(GREAT MOVIE) and left Vincent with a sitter. We thought he was teething or something because he had been fussy gus for the past 2 days, and each time we gave him teething tablets and a bottle he was fine.

We got back to the babysitter around midnight, and he sounded horrible. He had a very hoarse sounding cough, was crying and it sounded so pathetic, and he had a fever(top was 101.6, went down to 99.4) and so I felt like a horrible mother thinking I should have known he was sicker than just the sniffles. I should have known he wasnt teething(he is 15 weeks almost) and all this crap. I started bawling, and knew I had to get him to the emergency room.

So we went to the hospital where he was born. We got there, told them his symptoms, they heard how he sounded and were like "Croup". But his heart rate was pretty high and all this happy crap, so they ordered a chest X-Ray to be on the safe side.

The x-ray comes back and the doctor is slightly alarmed because he says Vincents heart is a little bigger than normal. Let me hear it people...shit shit shit shit shit shit shit....Josh(hubby) has a heart condition that was caused by his mother doing drugs while pregnant. We had a special ultrasound while I was pregnant to see how Vincents heart was and everything was perfect. Perfect perfect perfect. Now my son is horribly sick with croup, has a fever, we are giving him purified, humidified air and I am now being told he could possibly have something wrong with his heart.

SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT(and pardon my french people, it was a BAD night).

I totally have a complete comeapart...and Josh is scared too but held it together for me. I called my Grammy(take note people, its like 3am when I call her...but I needed SOMEONE to talk to...and she got scared right along with me) and I had left my mother a voicemail(she is in Montana right now) and she called the hospital and talked with me. I was crying, freaking out, worrying that my son may have something wrong with him...I was so scared.

THANK THE LORD THE OTHER JOB DIDNT WORK AND I HAD MY JOB WITH INSURANCE. God works in mysterious ways, and I bet he knew I needed to stay with the insurance. Granted the new jobs insurance would have been better, there was no coverage for 90 days. Vincent wouldnt have been covered. So thank god the job didnt work out.

Any who...back to the hospital. Because of the chest X-ray they did an EKG on Vincent and decided he needed to be taken, in ambulance, to the childrens hospital(this is the same hospital Josh has been taken care of all his life, thru his 5 open heart surgeries and everything...awesome hospital...parents worst nightmare tho)

So I am right on that ambulances BUTT to get to the hospital. We get there, I immediatly park my car and am right outside the ambulance before it is even completly stopped. I was a mother on a mission, You CANT keep me from my babies(hubby went on ambulance with Vincent).

**Side note...Josh wanted to come in the car with me because he was worried so much about me too. But I told him there is no way we are leaving Vincent alone, not even for a minute. I also liked the drive, listening to Nickleback's new cd on full blast and screaming...very theraputic...**

So we are now at the childrens hospital, and they hook vincent up to the bloodpressure taking thingy, attach the oxygen testing thingy to his toe...and monitor him for 2 hours. They also looked and the EKG results and X-ray from cottonwood and say that the heart xray may have been taken when vincent was inhaling and the heart was in the middle of a beat...and there were other things they said could have caused the heart to look a little large. But they say he isnt out of the woods yet.

They told me to have another X-ray done Tuesday at his pediatricians to see what it looks like. If anything, its back up to the childrens hospital for a battery of tests.

They say that they also arent too worried about the croup because while it is bad, vincent was resting comfortably on the bed(take note im laying right next to him, on the bed, hand on his chest, and making sure he is breathing even tho I know monitors would sound if he wasnt) and wasnt a screaming mess. He hadnt been fed in like 5 or 6 hours and was being pretty good, considering the fact he was awake most of the time. But they told us HUMIDIFIERS, keep a close eye on him, have a chest x-ray done tuesday, come back if symptoms get worse or something doesnt seem right.

So Here is to a whole lot of praying, hoping, and wishing that nothing is wrong with his heart. My family has a heart condition called Marfans Syndrom(sp?) but I dont think he would have it. Josh has his heart condition, but we believe it was caused by drugs and drugs alone since no one else in his family seems to have heart problems. So I am scared out of my mind, and am trying to be a strong mom for Vincent, and a strong wife for Josh. I think Josh may be more scared than me, because he knows more of what it means to have a heart condition.

God, I hope everything is ok.

I am going to bed now. Pray for Vincent please.

Here I am...with my favorite sunblock...wait...crap...I did it again...stupid baby clothes. I thought it was a full face mask.

DOH!

I just got my hair cut. Next week my mom is taking me to get highlights.

They chopped freaking 2.5 inches off!!! ACK! I wanted a hair cut, but now my hair is short again! WAAAAAAHHH!!!

*sigh* But at least it looks decent...:-)

Trying to sell the Nova still...heres hoping...

ah aint this cute

So sleepy

Well today was our first day, attempting to sell the Nova(75). Was not successful. BLAH. I was able to get my nails done today, preparing for my professional start at my new job Monday.

I was approved to work part time at my current job, and the part time training...and blah blah blah. Im freaking tired. And I am nervous!

Here is a new pic, cant you see the tired in me!

Well today I was talking with my teamleads/supervisors at my current job, and during the 2 weeks of training where I will only be working 4 hours a day...I may be able to do part time hours for 2 weeks.

I hope that it is approved tomorrow. I just hope my supervisor didnt put the termination paperwork thru first. If that has gone thru already, then tomorrow will be my last day. But if it hasnt, I was approved to work 1-5 on monday tuesday and wednesday, and 1-7 on thursday and friday. That will help aleviate the money woes while I get into the groove with my new job.

I really hope I am making the right decision with going to this new job. I hope that I make the money I was told I would make. I hope the environment is good and everything. I am so nervous...and more so because I have a child to take care of now. I want this job to work out and to get my benefits by october. So I just hope everything goes well.

And I would vent about a certain friend of mine *coughpamcough* but I really dont want to say anything I would regret. Yes I know I can edit my posts *coughgrrrrcough* but you never know what could happen. Lets just say she was the icing on my cake yesterday when I had a complete emotional breakdown...and then tried to say it wasnt her fault. BLAH!!!

Shutting up...going to bed...just painted my nails. They are purty!

Night.

Because at the end of this week I have no more insurance for 3 months...I had another pediatrician see Vincent today to give him his 2month shots. It was not fun.

But new stats on Vincent. He is 14lbs!!! It is just above average, but around where he needs to be. But he is 26.5" long. He is well above the 97% range...there isnt a line showing where he is...but its above the 97% thing...so he is an extremly tall boy! :-)

His head measures perfect. When the peditrician placed him on his belly to see how strong his neck muscles were he pushed himself completly up full arm length and was kicking his legs, trying to get away from the evil doctor. It was crazy! The pediatrician ended up grabbing one of his arms and holding him back so he wouldnt push himself off the table.

She then said "Well he is definantly more of a fall hazard than the other patients his age(12 weeks)" And she was very impressed with his neck/head control.

She did give me lots of crap for him sleeping on his belly(SIDS, blah blah blah...if he will only sleep through the night on his belly...so be it. And so far so good. He hates being on his back. And we try and prop him on is side...doesnt work. He is a belly boy! So BACK OFF!)

She also said that in the next month they recommend me start him on food(rice cereal...she said it should sit well...I just kind of with-held the fact that he has rice cereal in his botttle every night before bed...yeah...enough greif over the stomach sleeping...dont need greif over food!)

So Vincent and mama are doing great. Papa came to the peditrician visit too, and took over the badguy role(he was the one holding vincent when the shots were given)

OH YEAH! And I found out that while I am uninsured for the 3 months, when time comes for Vincents 4 month shots and stuff we have a health center that will only charge me 5 dollars a shot. So I can keep him up to date, and take him to the emergency center right there if he gets ill. And it wont cost nearly as much as an emergency room. :-)

Lets just hope for 3 months we dont need anything but his immunizations!*crosses fingers*

Night all!

Well, today was Vincents blessing. The adoptive parents, and my first son came, the dad participating in the blessing. We had my parents, sister sarah and somewhat sister krystal, grammy and pop, the Harmans...it was a big group.

Vincent, the past few times at church, has SLEPT thru the meetings and everything. But today he just felt the need to cry thru the blessing, and whine a bit during the rest of the meeting.

I also joked with my mom that after the blessing, could we leave. I mean, come on...we got cookies at my place! LOL. My mom was like "I hope you're not serious!"

So I suffered thru the meeting. :-)

So now Vincent is blessed, everyone hung out at my place for a bit...Andrew(my first one) had a blast chasing after my cats, playing with the little toy basketball, and was just so cute!...I was able to chat with Andrews parents...eat lots of cookies and fruit and get a stomach ache from hell and back...

It was a good day! And plus...my house is now clean again! :-)